These days, they just aren't easy. I am filled with ups and downs all the time. I don't know what it is, except I strongly feel it is a spiritual attack. I'm working towards making changes in my life, and every day I feel excited about it, every day I have time to really spend taking action towards those changes, I feel gloomy, unmotivated, alone, overwhelmed, tired, and my body just physically feels like lead. I hate it. I try to reach for God, but it isn't always my first course of action, and sometimes I just don't even know how to approach Him when I feel like this. I just seems easier to curl up in bed, and sleep. I know Satan wants it to stay like this. I know he doesn't want me to have joy, or physical healthy, or spiritual wisdom, or personal strength, and so he zaps my will to take action. Thankfully, I've come to realize what these days are, days the enemy wants to steal from me. I'm arming myself for this battle.
Through all of it though, God has give me a little ray of sunshine, a shining star who helps pull me up during the worst days when I can't seem to pull myself out of it. Looking into my nephew and seeing his smile, it's like getting a smile from God. He is sunshine on the rainy days..
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